I see things in grey.

I know that you don't understand me. I don't understand me.

I am the kind of person who is happy for someone's happiness. I am the kind of person who hates when I see someone's happy. I want to serve the humanity. I want to teach children. I want to work for homeless people. I want to earn a lot of money. I want to show people what I'm good at. I am ambitious. I am caring. I am dark and mysterious. I like to talk about me. I don't like to talk about me. I want people say I'm good. I don't want them to know I'm good. I don't talk about what I feel. I want someone to listen to what I feel. I want to give up all I have for someone who needs me and only wants me. I don't want to give up my all for anyone. I hate my parents. I am afraid of making them unhappy. I am the most selfish girl in my family. I am the most selfless girl among my friends. I am ugly. I am beautiful. I don't want to listen to people's problems. I want to be the one they talk to. I want to help people. I know what I want. I am afraid of what I want. I want to be hopeful. I am afraid of being disappointed.

You are not killing me. I am killing me. I don't understand me.